Being-doing, an opening to possibilities, and a taster of healing modalities
Hi wonderful humans,
It's been so long since I've been here! I am feeling into how lovely it is that you are all here, that you signed up to receive little pieces of my life force essence in your inbox. Thank you.
I am hoping that this marks the beginning of a lot more writing. I've spent the last year and a half deep in emotions, processing, healing, turning towards my essence. I learned some things, and I feel warmth and openness that there is a space here to share some of that.
Something that has been unfolding in me recently is how much our sense of what's possible is limited by what we already know. I am imagining a dark room, and whispers of people talking about light. If I lived in the room, I would look at the shifting shadows and imagine that was the light people meant. Outside, in the house, I might look at the patch of sunlight coming through the window and feel delight in its brightness, ah, this is the light they speak of. Stepping out of the house into the open air and feeling the sunshine bathe my skin, I would then know light in my body – what a world of difference! What warmth and fresh air and openness.
When my ideal parent figure therapist asked me to imagine ideal parents who were able to hold any emotion that I brought to them and just continue being there for as long as I needed, I felt protesting – surely not! How could that be possible? It is possible, and boy did I need to feel that. When there are things we have never experienced, like our anger being received with love and celebration, or the ease of feeling safe when we have felt an underlying fear our whole lives, or someone attuning to what we are feeling, it is so hard to imagine otherwise.
If you like, imagine you're lying in the grass in the sunshine. Your eyes are closed, you can hear a creek tinkling beside you, and the warmth of the sun is luscious over your body. Someone you love is near you, here to spend the day with you doing whatever would most light you up, and you get to bask in their love and presence. Someone else has all of your responsibilities handled, and this is your space. Imagine the scene however feels most spacious, and free, and full of love. And then see if you can imagine holding that feeling at the same time as coming back into doing things in your day – while making dinner, or meeting with your colleagues, or driving to work.
What happens? What does it feel like? What is it like to imagine this being and doing, the spaciousness and the responsibilities, at the same time? Maybe you already feel this.
I confess, I am coming here partly because I want to share something with you. I'm putting together the first iteration of a three week Tour of Inner Work course, starting next week, to give people a taste of the modalities that have most helped me unfold. I'm so proud of what we are creating with it, and I would love for you to join us if you feel called. I am starting to offer coaching in energetics, parts work, ideal parent figure work, inquiry, and somatics. And I am building an app, Sunrise, to help guide people through healing modalities. I feel so much aliveness around helping people unfold, so please reach out if this resonates, and we can collectively open up our possibilities.
Sending love,
Amanda